This One’s For You, Teacher Alice…

A couple of days ago, I lost one of my favorite teachers.

Alicia G. Sarmiento

When I was in grade school, she has been a huge influence. I always looked forward to the things I learned from her. I didn’t really like school, but I loved learning, and the things I learned from her have made a huge impact on me. I’ve always looked up to her. For me, she was next to perfect.

I loved her not only because she was so smart and fierce. I loved her mostly because she had a lot of faith in me. She was one of the people who believed in me, believed that I could go places, reach limitless goals. I could look at her then and know that she was a strong-willed person who knows what she wants and works on getting it.

She was someone who wasn’t afraid to be different. She had her own say, had her own style. She wasn’t someone to quietly conform and stand on the sidelines. She was someone who made things happen, someone who took control of things. I like myself, and I like being different from the rest. I like wanting different things from the usual. She has shown me (and hopefully a throng of other students whose lives she has touched) that a teacher is not just someone who teaches you while you are in school, who molds you into the person that society expects you to be. Instead, she has shown that a teacher’s success is measured long after the endless hours they spend in classrooms or the sleepless nights they have while preparing lesson plans. A teacher is successful when she can confidently let go of her students, knowing that wherever they life may lead them, she has instilled in them the things they need to survive the circus of life.

To her family, I offer my deepest condolences. I sympathize and share your grief because I, too, lost a part of my life with her passing. I thank the Lord, though, to have blessed me with amazing teachers like her.

In case I have never been able to say this, I want to thank you, for all the things I learned from you… You will be missed, terribly…

Rest in peace, Teacher Alice.

And Then There Was Me

and then there was me…

and i was laughing my whole heart out
that you were someone i couldn’t do without
and i didn’t know that it was true
and that my whole life would be blue

and i thought i could get away with things
that i could fight these confusing feelings
and i didn’t think i’d never be the same
i thought i was the one playing the game

and now there is only me, myself and i
and the loneliness as such I cannot deny
because all i knew of love has left me
this is as broken as one can ever be

so all that is left right now to do
is to get over everything, even you
because even if i live in grief and in pain
life and love will never happen this way again.

Listen to Me When Your Heart Breaks

The Heart of the Matter by India Arie

"It's about forgiveness…" This is absolutely the best phrase in the entire song. Basically, the song is about a woman who got a phone call from her friend telling her that her ex-lover has already found a new love.

My favorite line actually has a universal truth in it. Breakups are always about forgiveness, even when there's no love anymore.

Forgiveness for the hurt we cause each other.

Forgiveness for the wrongs we have done to each other.

Forgiveness for the things we could have done but failed to do.

It's about forgiving the person who has hurt you the most. It's about moving on. It's about not giving up the hope that someday somehow, we will find somebody new, somebody we may not anymore love as deep as we have loved someone before but somebody who deserves all the love we can give from the placed back pieces of our broken hearts.

Rise by Gabrielle

I'm not really sure if this song could actually help me get over a breakup, but it's worth listening to. The chorus goes "Look at my life; look at my heart.I have seen them fall apart, and now I'm ready to rise again."

They call it a breakup for a reason. When two people decide to go on separate ways, there are always devastating effects on at least one of them. When you go through a break up, it's not just the relationship that get's broken.

Hearts. Dreams. Lives. They all get broken too.

Unfortunately, wallowing in self despair and depression won't help. No matter how much your heart is broken, the world does not stop for your grief. The best we can do is to look into ourselves, find our inner strength, realize that even we are hurting, the future is still on our side. A day will come when our hurts will heal. When we are ready to rise again, we will find that, in love, no one ever wins without losing a few things along the way.

Doin’Just Fine by Boyz 2 Men

This song may not always make you feel better, but you'll have one good cry when you listen to it. Everybody needs to have a hell of a good cry when they go through a break up. Everybody needs to be able to get it all out of their system.

Breakups are hard. Songs usually work as a catalyst to getting over breakups or just to help you find it in yourself to take a good look at the relationship and realize if the break up will someday be a blessing in disguise or if the relationship is actually still worth fighting for.

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Tearful Rhapsody

I look at you now, and I just know
That the time has come to let you go.

We loved each other the best we knew how,
But all the love in the world is not enough now.

The ring that once bound two people together
Now feels like cold metal, built to smother.

The bed that once seemed like a world so big
Is now too small for two different worlds to fit.

The nights that were spent in each other’s embrace
Are now just nights that pud an end to days.

The mornings that were always shiny and bright
Are just days that end up as a really cold night.

The hearts that once beat with a love so real
Are now homes to wounds that never seem to heal.

The touch that once burned with all the fiery passion
Is now a touch that hurts, a touch with no emotion.

The eyes that used to see only each other
Now flow with tears that couldn’t fall any faster.

So now, my love, I am finally setting you free;
I’ll never have the courage to say these things to thee.

I am writing this letter as my apology
And my thanks for the love you’ve given me.

No other woman can ever love her man
The way I did. I loved you the best I can.

And no other heart can break like mine does now;
No other person can cry as much as I had done now.

Maybe we will, one day, see each other again,
But until then, we know that this is the end.

High Altitudes

I decided to write a short poem for today. I hope you guys still enjoy it.

Words aren’t any good right now;
Everything’s just emotions burning.
I have lost all sense of thought, somehow;
I can see them all leaving.

It’s all a sad and tragic fate
With nothing left to do but wait.
Nothing else left to feel but hate.
Why can’t anyone get it straight?

It’s all of no use, and my head aches;
I’ve got nothing else left to say.
Knowing this, my heart beats and breaks;
There’s no one to take these hurts away.

I would also like to pass on this award to the 12 poets listed below… Please check out their blogs as well. I assure you that you won’t regret it. These people have written great poetry as well. I am giving them this award for all the time and effort they have put into creating beautiful pieces of literature.

1. Fiveloaf http://fiveloaf.wordpress.com

2. Brian MIller     http://www.waystationone.com

3. Jamie Funster     http://www.janniefunster.com

4. Beth     http://doubtfulpoet.wordpress.com/

5. Kseverny     http://kseverny.wordpress.com

6. Shakira     justmeshakirack.blogspot.com

7. Wordwand     http://wordwand.wordpress.com/

8. Datsme     http://justthinkingloud.wordpress.com/

9. Steve    http://gargoylesroost.wordpress.com

10. Gerarding Baugh     http://gerardinebaugh.wordpress.com

11. The Good Doctor     http://drj3kyll.wordpress.com

12. Gavroche    http://thinkinlikegavroche.wordpress.com

Open and Closed

I find myself both excited and hesitant. Excited because I am about to face another chapter in my life which will surely be of great importance. I am sure that this path I am taking now is going to take me places, let me learn new things, and allow me to experience a whole lot of new circumstances. I am certain that I am going to have another bumpy and pressured ride, but it is one where I can certainly survive and live through.

However, with all the excitement, I also feel hesitant. I am going to leave behind people which I have come to care about so much. I am saying goodbye to friends and people that I have known for the past three years. I am leaving behind the very people who have motivated me to learn and to grow.

Somebody told me that I also need to do such things for myself. I cannot forever rely on the success of other people. I also have to pursue my own success. I cannot stay in their shadows forever. I have to have a shadow of my own. I am thankful because GOD gave me a chance to work with such amazing and determined people. I will always be driven to success because of the values that I have acquired from them. But I am also very much looking forward to meeting new people who can also be as inspiring and as motivating. So, as much as it pains me to say goodbye, I am also happy because a new door is openly waiting for me.

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So This is Goodbye

I wrote this poem when I was fourteen, which makes that 11 years ago. I think I was about to go through a bad break uo when I wrote this. That’s why there’s a feeling of an impending heartbreak when you read the poem. Anyway, I hope you still enjoy it.

So This is Goodbye

It started out so fine;
I’m yours, and you’re mine.
We didn’t care about anything.
We forgot about everything.

It seemed so perfect before.
But now, there’s no feeling anymore.
There’s no more feeling of security,
And what’s left is insincerity

I can’t cope with or even understand
The reason why these all need to end.
What seemed to be so right and perfect
Would end up to be a matter of respect.

I don’t know what more to do,
But I can’t stop thinking of you.
I know nothing can change anything
But only worsen everything.

Is this all my mistake
To make it end in heartcache?
Or is it all your blame
For calling out another name?

Don’t say I never cared because I did.
Honestly, I really, really did.
If only you’d know, you’d be sorry
For not even telling me you’re sorry.

A friend told me my decision is wrong
Because I’ve wanted you for so long
That it’s not right to just let you go
For some reason we don’t know

It’s bothering my whole mind
Because of answers I can’t find.
Where do I belong now?
Now that you’re gone, somehow

It’s hurting deep inside;
The tears are so hard to hide.
It’s not easy letting you go
When I’ve learned to love you so.

I can’t focus on anything everyday
Because of the fact that you’d never stay.
I can’t think of better things to do
Than cry all my heart for you.

Everything was perfect from the start
And still would be, if we followed our hearts.
But everything changed, even our love.
Now there can be no more love.

So this is goodbye;
I’ll never know why.
It’s what we need to do,
But still, I’ll always love you.

Wishes

Five more days and we’ll finally say goodbye to year 2009. I can’t say I’m too excited. 2009 has been such a blessed and fruitful year for me. I have had so much good things happen this year. I guess maybe I feel like the year went by without me noticing. But as much as I want to stay in 2009 forever, I have to be brave and move on. I can only hope that the next year will be just as good.

As the year comes to an end, I also want to make sure that I haven’t forgotten to say my thanks to GOD, who has given me all the blessings this year.I will never be where I am now without Him. I also want to make sure that for 2010, I will be a better person. I will work hard to be who I am meant to be. I will love twice as deep, laugh twice as hard, sing twice as loud, dance twice as much, and live twice as well.

To all my friends and family, may you all be blessed and happy all throughout your lives. May you always have peace and love in your hearts. et us all live life the way we were meant to do so. I love you all, and God bless!!!!