Exalted

Sometimes, we reach a point where everything is just how we want things to be.

When you’re at this point, be thankful. Celebrate every moment. Live every day. Glorify the Lord in the best way you know how. Say your prayers of thanks.

These moments won’t always last. But there is always something greater.

It is not true what they say that when you’re already there, there is no other way to go but down. The truth is, when you reach the peak of everything you’ve aimed for, when you’re already at the top, there is STILL another way up. You carve a way up. You defy expectations. You empower yourself.

Thank you, Lord, for everything you have blessed me with. I always ask for more not because I am never satisfied but because I know you can give more and you always do. It is because I have faith that you only give what is good. I know your plans are to prosper me. I know you will take me there.

Blind Curves

I’ve always been the kind of person with no definite life plan.

When I was younger, I’ve always wanted to become a doctor. When I grew up, I realized I could never stand the sight of other people’s blood. How was I possibly going to attend to the sick?

When I entered college, I was dead sure I’d be enrolling for a bachelor’s degree in accountancy. However, I ended up pursuing Sociology-Anthropology. I spent the next seven years professionally working in the BPO industry, I loved those years. In all my life, I have never learned so much and absorbed so much than when I was in the corporate world. There may have been days when I questioned my decision to stay, but, in general, I was happy.

However, Fate had many other plans for me. I was given an opportunity to leave the corporate life and start a quieter work environment by working from home full-time. I took a chance, and I am so thankful to God that the risk paid off.

The past three months, hell, the past year has never been what I would have expected. For someone who doesn’t really plan on how my life should be, what I am going through now is still beyond my wildest imagination. Never would I have thought I’d be spending a 26-hour workday at home.
Surprise

I am happy. I mean, what person would not love being able to work from home and still earn something decent? I don’t see far into the future, but I can honestly say that where my life is going now is absolutely the greatest surprise I have even received.

Forgiveness is not a Requirement

They say that when we forgive, we set a prisoner free. That prisoner is ourselves. I agree. When there’s nothing to forgive anymore, when there’s no anger to hold on to, you’re free to move on. You’re free to feel other emotions. However, sometimes, some hurts just go way too deep that not even forgiveness can fathom. Sometimes, there are things done to us that ultimately change our lives. Lucky are those who find a better life for themselves after they have been through the deepest of hurts. For some, they are not so fortunate. Others get stuck at the twisted situation they get caught in. Other lose their lives because of the pain.

I am proud to say that I have come on top after being at the lowest of lows. My life may not have been perfect, but I would never have things any other way. I have had many people hurt me. I have forgiven most of them. Most. Not all. You may say that I am only stopping my self from being completely happy because I still hold grudges. You’re wrong. I never said I still hold grudges. I am no longer angry. But I will never be able to forgive. I do not think of these people anymore. In fact, I can honestly say that I wish them a good life, great health, and peaceful minds. But I would never want to have them in my life anymore. Not at all.

I have still set myself free because amidst all of these, I have forgiven MYSELF. Not them but myself. I have forgiven myself for my lack of independence when I was younger. I have forgiven myself for allowing them to hurt me. I have forgiven myself for letting them get the better of myself. Forgiving them is another story. One that is not mine to tell. Their forgiveness is not longer in my hands. What I can do with my life now is to live a happy and content life. I can only hope that they will not feel the hurt an disappointment that they have made me feel many, many years ago.